Wake Up
I had a terrible dream nightmare last night…JPK was in the NICU again. He wasn’t a newborn, but wasn’t quite as big as he is now. He was naked, and hooked up to multiple machines, per the reality that once was. I was frantic during the multiple visits I took during the dream. I has just as much stress and worry as I did then.
In my dream I ended up fighting with two of the nurses – one because she was trying to tell me that JPK might have asthma so they needed to do more tests. I kept telling her that he was fine and that I wanted him to be discharged – she wouldn’t listen…bitch. The other nurse that I fought with – well she had the nerve to pull a glass window in between us during our conversation (this of course she pulled out of thin air) and I was so offended.
I remember talking to Nana out in the waiting area and she was distraught because they wouldn’t put a blanket over his little body. I’m wondering now if that part of the dream is what prompted me to wake up and check on JPK in his crib – I was worried that he was cold so I put one of my scarves over him and baby socks on his hands….hahahah, WHAT?! #sleepwalkingmom
While I’ll never forget the reality of those weeks in the NICU, I’m ready to put them behind me, consciously and unconsciously.
I open my eyes as I wake up, and realize that this little stinker is no dream!
*Good morning
*He’s a champ at swatting at and crunching his toy bar. I love love love to hear it when I’m driving
*And we’re teething! 4 teeth currently poking through. Biscuits make a M-E-S-S, but are well worth it
*Showing the box of tissues who’s the boss of the roo pouch…(they WERE on the table next to the couch, he reached around and grabbed the box…a much better position to destroy…)
He is a trooper that JPK. We will never forget his rocky start, but he is even stronger now for overcoming those cloudy days. He couldn’t have asked for a better mamma and pappa roo to shower him with all the love, guidance, and enthusiasm he needed along the way. Here’s to a bright future for that little one, the clouds are parting and the sun is shining down.
Toofers?!! I can’t wait to see:) And you are the best.
That is all for now:)
gina